the trains were all running on a crazy, insane, frustrating holiday schedule since it was President's day.
we kept switching trains to catch the right one…and each time we switched, we hauled all of my camera equipment and computers….
ummm...it went downhill quickly.
20 minutes before the conference was to start, we gave up and grabbed a cab.
we arrived (whew), and i ran inside to greet my new friends, and to get set up as quickly as possible.
from here, things were far from what i had planned in my mind and on paper.
in my head, things were out of my realm of control.
in my mind, my mission got fuzzy and my "performance" felt strained.
and i looked at my dear friends (krissy & buffy ) and they reminded me to look back to my mission.
and what is that? my mission…my goal…my message?
it is to reach hearts and souls...
it is to show throughout the tangible evidence of a photograph that YOUR MIRROR LIES…that there are traits inside each and everyone of us that are miraculously, and beautifully and uniquely made, and that they are EXQUISITE.
it is to show girls, teens, and women alike that their value and their worth come from the very place in their souls that was created by their loving heavenly father who created this breathtaking world that we live in, and if HE could create a universe that looks like this, how much greater is the beauty that He planted in each and every one of His children???
it is to show women of every age that the perspective that they see themselves from is FALSE…that if we can learn to change our perspective, (just as a photographer grows in their craft by changing their perspective), that our view of ourselves will be more magnificent than we could have ever imagined.
and that the view and the perspective i am striving to show them is TRUTH.
that is my mission.
not how eloquently the words flow from my mouth...
not how many people think i am cool, or interesting, or even how recognized my photographs or my name becomes. it is leading girls…it is teaching teens…it is revealing truth to women.
my mission, i accomplished.
and not to my glory, but His.
no, not for me...
but for Sarah…for Delfine…for Marieanna and for Alexis…for Sunni and Alliyah and Kassandra...
and for each of those girls that heard and saw.
and maybe the best way to conclude is through the words of Mother Teresa:
"I used to pray that God would feed the hungry, or do this or that, but now I pray that He will guide me to do whatever I'm supposed to do. I used to pray for answers, but now I'm praying for strength. I used to believe that prayer changes things, but now I know that prayer changes us, and we change things."